Katie's In Love

I fell in love with T.I. the other night. (Don’t worry Tiny; it’s not like that)

The Hip-Hop Summit Action Network gave him an award for helping get out the vote this past campaign cycle.  He could have given so many different kinds of acceptance speeches… He could have said “thank you” and genuinely meant it. He could have said “thank you” and noted people in the room who helped him with his efforts.He could have given lip service to “giving back” and had everyone clapping pleasantly in acknowledgement of his selflessness (common award etiquette).

He didn’t do any of that.Let me tell you what he did instead….T.I. said “thank you” and he made every single person in the room feel it and journey through his understanding of the work that creation (God, Allah, The Universe, The Flow… pick your poison) intends through his life.

Life is cyclical and God is perfect. As T.I. was speaking about that perfection and brutally recounting the pains of the past year he started to radiate with beauty.

He said: 'I want to thank God for somehow … I know he perfect. So I'mma thank him for everything. I'mma thank him for making me drop out of school. I'mma thank him for making me run the streets. I'mma thank him for making me sell crack. I'mma thank him for making me have shoot-outs. I'mma thank him for allowing me to watch my partners die in my arms, So I'd be fearful enough for my life and paranoid enough to go out and cop machine guns and silencers so I catch a fed case and I have to put up $3 million for my bond so I have to spend seven months of my life in my house, so I have to spend a year of my life in prison just so I be validated enough to get out there and touch the youth because they know that I done been through it, and if I say it, it means something. You know what I'm saying?'

Yeah, Katie Rost sure knows what you’re saying.I believe losing your focus is part of maintaining your focus.  The magic and the beauty come when you’ve lost your focus and you not only move in a different direction but you also thank god for refining your crazy ass and using you for something infinite.

Just knowing that makes the burden of the pain easier.  That truth is infinity freeing you from the emptiness you had before.  Emptiness is unconsciousness. Recognizing unconsciousness is consciousness.

Many people are riding the wave, but don’t know they’re in the ocean.  Perhaps they are fighting against the movement that creation (God) intends and they therefore exist trapped in confusion, in anxiety, in struggle and in pain.Many people are riding the wave, dipping their hand down into the water-- in awe of the force of it.  These people are operating their lives with respect for the intention of creation and are allowing it to happen and assist it in creating.  There is always a refining going on.

It’s ok to lose focus but we’re all proud of you T.I. for finding yours and helping others find theirs.

- Katie Rost