Learning How To Share

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I’m at Russell’s apartment and Julie Henderson just walked down stairs.

I’m not saying she was doing the walk of shame (but it was 12:15 pm)  Let me be clear, I have no beef with Julie! We’ve just fallen at different times for the same man…

The first thing she said to me when she cascaded down the stairs was, “When are you leaving?”

I said, “in two weeks"

Her eyebrow rose in skeptic dismay.

I waited a looooong minute before telling her I wouldn’t be staying with Russell the whole time.

Ok, let's move past all of that. I’m not a petty, competitive woman! (Yes I am) but I'm totally ok with the fact that my time with Russell was beautiful but brief. I am genuinely happy that our friendship has formed in the wake. I'm also happy that he has found someone else whose company he enjoys.

No, no, no people, I’m not going to hate on Julie Henderson! She’s extremely cute for a White girl. (I’m more partial to the ethnic look, but to each their own.)  I’ve got to give it up to Julie for getting like 5000 hits on the Sports Illustrated pics and video (which are indeed smoking hot) when they were posted on Global Grind.   

Anyway, when Julie and Russell got in last night and came to say goodnight to me, I was chillin in the downstairs guestroom. I had passed out listening to a Deepak Chopra's self-help lecture with a mud mask on. Russell opened the door and asked me if I had a man in the bed. Julie told me I looked oily. They then ran upstairs giggling and having a “we’re a couple and you are a loser who is alone in bed with a f*cking mud mask on your face” moment.  But like I said before, all of that is absolutely fine with me. I’m fine in the guest room, Fine fine fine!

I’ve written a lot about the big 29th year on my blogs. It’s so crazy that 30 is approaching and it's so bizarre to look back and see that my modeling career has been a decade long. As I start to contemplate the next phase, sometimes the young 20-something-year-olds like Julie challenge me to face my ego and to consider what’s next. I've had my time and now she is having hers.

Russell always instills in his friends to consider what your gift is and how you can give to others. He was flipping through my portfolio as I recounted the Julie Henderson-meets-Katie Rost moment (unfortunately he was hiding out and missed the whole thing).

With his always pleasing and serene glow he said, “You’ve been steady and you’ve been in this game for a long time. Maybe everyone doesn’t know your name but you’ve had a really great career and now you get to think about sharing your other talents with the world.”

Ahhh, sharing and giving back, that’s always a good place to start…

- Katie Rost

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  • You are so talented and you put so much of yourself out there. You are funny, raw and amazing.

    By the way, everyone who works at Global Grind knows who the girl is who keeps writing negative things about you. She changes her log in name but the IP address is the same. The few below mine are all her, which is why I'm posting. Pretty pathetic. Maybe she should get a life and stopping obsessing over you?
    Keep Grinding Katie. Karma and TJ might not want you to have the best, but I do. You have a wonderful life and they are bottom feeders. You are first class, they've never even been on the damn plane.
    Congrats on your new relationship, I hear you guys are happy and its so nice that you have good terms with your past men.
    Enjoy your life and love :=)
  • what goes around comes around....Im so glad your whorish ass is getting what has long been waiting
  • i would d-e-f-i-n-i-t-e-l-y would re-read that self-help book girl..might wanna throw in a "200 Ways to Raise a Girl's Self-Esteem" because you need all the help you can get.. the only reason you keep on bout this chick is cuz she is white..lol so pathetic! Enjoy your day, but im sure you will be too busy hatin' on other women and feeling self pity, insecurity and bitterness to be capable of a good day..kinda sad..:)
  • Katie, does anybody post high res pic of you anywhere? I've been looking for some to post because I think your pics would get way more hits but I'll be damned - I can't find any! Sistas aren't that good at self-promotion and one of the simplest things you can do is make sure there are plenty of high quality images of yourself being circulated. The talentless Tila Tequila, Paris Hilton and Kim Kardashians of the world figured that one out a long time ago and are raking in the benefits. Get us some images of your hot azz!
  • Katie you are so beautiful. I love your writing style. You should consider writing a novel. Regardless of the subject, I love the way you express your thoughts. I will be checking for you on the regular. Your real and genuine!
  • Good luck Katie! This is my first time reading your blog and I must say I absolutely love your style of laying your thoughts out!!! Please ignore the negativity that some have decided to post in response to your blog. As women we have all made decisions that may not have been the best at the time, but we learn from them and move on. And again, who are we (those who don't know you) to say that the position that you are in now isn't the best one for you? The decisions that you have made were made by an intelligent woman who knows what is best for her. So I don't speak in judgement but in respect. I respect the fact that you can openly discuss a subject that the mainstream say (and most are lying because they have probably done something similar) is something they would never do! LOL if I had a dollar for every time that I said I would never do something (either to myself or to a friend), but I actually did do it...I would have Oprah's millions and I'm only 40! I look forward to reading more, stay positive and be blessed!





  • It's difficult to understand why women would subject themselves by being in a relationship that has no future, and probably only hurting you more so in the end. I mean, didn't you know Russell (not to just single him out) is living his second childhood and banging whatever exotic (with the exception of his new flavor for the moment) hot young chick that's gullible? Did you really think it would last? Or, was that "fast ride" too tempting to ignore? I know, Russell was like a father figure with "ends"? Pick it up woman - we all aren't getting younger, time for you to rethink your plans in life and get it started. And, think about it, thees no shame to seek professional advice while you "move to another phase in life". Doctors, Lawyers and even Russell has received such advice one way or another. You can do it. But we all need help to acheive it.
  • Katie, I love you girl! I love the way you write. The subtle oxymoronic metaphorical sarcasm... it's classic. That's my style of writing and that's what the great writers are made of.

    This particular situation may or may not be as bad or as good as it seems to the readers. The others who have read this may be reading too much into it. It was a release for you but others just don't get. Still, that's not important. What's important is the reaction it causes for the reader.

    Just by you coming back and reading the responses you can see just how simple minded most people in the world really are. I don't mean that in a negative way, it's just a fact. You are a deep thinker, but most others are surface thinkers. They try to rationalize the way we do but they can't. I can feel you in your writing style, and I can tell that even though this "situation" may have caused "some type" of an emotion in you, it's definitely not hurt. This isn't really a concern for you.

    It's simply a metaphorical release about another problem. I can see it, so I'ma give the simple minded people this one for free...

    You're not bothered by Russell moving on, you're concerned/curious about the future of your career, being bored with modeling, and turning 30.

    It was just a release for you... but most would not have understood, so you decided to mask it with some everyday male female drama crap that you're really not concerned about. :-) Classic! (I can tell you were the smart mouth in school who always wanted to know "Why?") There's nothing wrong with that at all.

    I mirror a lot of your blogs on my site. I look forward to you writing an original one day. I've already recruited Alex Morissen. I hope you and Racha will be next!

    Stay up love!

    The use of Knowledge is DANGEROUS,

    Bobby R. Bowden
    President
    Bowden & Levi Media Group
    www.klazzy.com
    www.samples.klazzy.com
  • Katie, don't let these people bother you... there searching for gossip while your out living your dreams. Your relationship didn't work but you've obviousely obtained a beautiful friendship with Russell.. My break ups don't ever go this smooth! As women we always compare ourselves to our boyfriends exes or new girlfriends and we just have to learn to take what we were ment to take from the relationship and leave the rest behind...I wouldn't pay to be back in my tweenties.... dumbest period of my life.. the thirties are beautiful and I'm getting better with time!
  • girl I can only wish you the best. and that you realize your other talents and are able to develop them and share them.

    from the other comments, some feel you are in a negative situation, that is not beneficial for emotionally, but it's up to you and how you feel.
  • girl don't worry yourself with Russell. he has one type of girl twenty something models. Kimora, Porschula, you now Katie, move on and move out find yourself someone who will love and respect you and when he see's how happy you are with out him he will miss you. I wish you every happiness.
  • all love ..... love your new blog racha .... got an idea maybe we should have a reality show where we slip in some messages about more substantial ways to uplift people or animals or the planet if not maybe we could just continue to entertain..... cause the truth is they (we) are sometimes more excited by lil fun entertaining blogs then we are by good karmic work we could promote with all the time we spend reading and promoting this kinda mindless fun stuff : -)
  • Haaaaa! I love your blog girl. Good stuff :-) Hope you're good and that we manage to chill SOON! I'm sure Julie doesn't mind all of us staying over. Lol
    • Racha has a new blog out? I'm going to go read it NOW (as should everybody else)
      LOVE YOU GIRLFRIEND...
  • The person who wrote the blog below knows Katie personally. At least that’s what I think... How would that person know that she's not romantic? She’s a Cancer and she most likely is not romantic. Russell is a Libra's and they are very romantic. Or at least they can be if he likes you. Then to say the obvious reason for her to stay would be because it’s free. That’s something a Libra would say. He stated the obvious. And, don’t get me wrong I am not saying that Russell wrote that; I am just saying that I think the person who wrote it knows Katie personally.



    Trying to gain clarity? Why are you staying with Russell? Obvious reason would be it's free. Is that the case? I know you aren't romantic. I can't imagine him being your type. Posted By: Testbet

  • You sound like a pretty foolish person. If you aren't so concerned about the new girl, why take time to (subtly) slam her looks, and why not just leave Russell's house? The title of this blog implies that you are sharing him, and unless there is something else going on that we didn't read, that is not the case. He has moved on and you are looking like a fool to keep yourself in the situation. Granted, you are very pretty, but it doesn't appear that "wise" would be a word someone would use to describe you. Maybe that's why he switched chicks. Get out of that mans house and go live your life. You sound like a teenager.
    • Indeed, I haven't made any progress in maturity level since year 14... especially when it comes to boys... i mean men...
    • Sounds like your comment was laced with sarcasm. Anywho, you are an adult, regardless of maturity level - obviously you can do whatever you want, so if staying on at your ex's house with the new girl on the block does it for you, then so be it. . Don't know what you were trying to get out of your post, but I hope things work out for you. The story you told sounds like a sad one. Good luck.

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