From: www.cnn.com

(People.com) -- The romance has long since died, but for Kate Gosselin, a kernel of the emotion still lives.

"A part of me always will [love Jon]," she said. "It's hard to to be married to somebody for 10 years and try to say 'No, I don't love them anymore.' It doesn't work really well. I love the memories that we have together."

Sitting down with the Today show's Natalie Morales for a special aired on TLC Monday night, Gosselin, 34, described a bleak life after splitting with Jon, with her living in the center of a maelstrom of media attention.

"We can't turn life off," Kate said. "You're viewing our lives; yes, you can turn it off. I can't turn life off. In the last nine, 10 months, it's gotten real crazy, and I can't seem to get away from it. I just want peace for my kids."

Responding to Morales' argument that she could find peace simply by leaving the cameras behind, the onetime nurse said that her life has turned into a Catch-22 situation she can't seem to escape, and that she has no alternative but to keep pursuing what has become the primary source of income for herself and her eight children.