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“I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY…”

Posted by: Remy Ma 6/15/2009 | 21,836 Views

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So it's been a little over a year since Remy Ma has been in prison but it feels like forever since Remy Mackie formerly known as Remy Smith has been incarcerated.

I always find myself thinking about what I was doing a year ago, two years ago, five years ago today. I never remember exactly where till I find myself imagining where I would be today. I rarely listen to the radio because it’s sort of depressing. Not being able to record is stressful not because I’m a rapper but because that was my way of venting and expressing myself. So I write a lot! So much that now I have a callous on my finger from holding a pen. I guess I got used to texting my rhymes!

I get a lot of fan mail and everyone asks me how I’m doing? I say fine, the way I see it I never imagined making it this far with my sanity. Not being able to go somewhere when you want, see your family when you want (on many occasions when you need to), can't use the phone, take a shower, wear clothes, or even eat when you want - super aggravating. Whenever, which is almost everyday I get visits, a lot of kids ask for autographs. It’s something that I used to do almost everyday but now it actually feels weird, I really feel like an inmate.
And as much as I hate to admit it, I really am an inmate. I mean, it kind of grows on you when certain people go out of there way to make you feel like that.

They have this program called YAP (Youth Assistance Program) they keep asking me to join. It’s a program that brings inner city kids to the prison to show them what it’s like to be incarcerated. I hear that every group asks about me but I’m a little hesitant to join. They think it will give the kids a reality check that this can happen to anyone. I however feel that it’ll be more of the kids wanting to see Remy Ma the rapper and because of that they won't get that I'm actually in jail. So I'm still contemplating. If I figure out a way for them to actually get it, that this is really not a place you would ever want to be whether for 8 years, 8 months, or 8 minutes then I’ll do it.

Everyone in prison isn't innocent but everyone in prison isn't guilty. So whether you end up here on purpose or by accident, the pain you’re feeling is still the same. And I can quote a lot "gangsters” by saying that “I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy…”

Forever Innocent,
Rem

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your music is what gets me through the day knowing what you been through make me feel a lot stronger even now i feel i got a lot took from me in the past year then i did in 26 years of my life where their a will there a way to make music dont give up cause i havent cause u have fans and from a mother 2 a mother happy late mothers day i kiss my son everynight i give him 5 kisses 1 from me,his dad,my family&cousins,god and most of all from mothers who cant kiss their kid or kids goodnight stay strong and for ur hands god will always keep u covered from head 2 toes much love michae

michae 6/16/2009 | reply
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Let me begin by saying I am fan of Remy Ma. I had many of her joints as my ring tone over the years. Also I am a old school head, mean real Hip Hop music.I grew up in the Boogie Down in the late 70's 80's. So yes I am a true head. But the problem I have with this ,is the consciousness. I vaguely remember a photo of her the night she shot the young lady. Ma was rocking Louis Vuittion apparel. Yet she shot a girl for a mere $3k.Her attire was worth more than the money in her bag, but she was willing to take a life. I recognize the street mentality about respect and not taking shorts. But there is something that needs to be said about f*cking COMMON SENSE. In the words of Bill Cosby, "Come On People." The culture has to change. Again, I grew up with a similar mentality but as I completed my education I realize this was assinine ideas. Russell writes that she is missed in Hip Hop, Yo how many other are missed in Hip Hop behind the same small minded ideas.

TheFashionistaChic 6/16/2009 | reply
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Keep on praying and seeking God until your steps become ordered and then you will know what to do. The battle is not your's but the Lord's.....

Fancee 6/15/2009 | reply
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yo i 4got keep writtn those raps my man do the same ur vocab is gone get much stronger it already was but u'll see sometimes i say 2 my man how u come up wit dat all the time he spent in the pin he got 3 albums on his dome wit out writting any word but he write raps 2 me his memory is very strong. benifit from every bad situation that comes ur way good will shine threw

chrissy 6/15/2009 | reply
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yo i aint in prision but im doing a bid with my man they gave him 6yrs he's been upstate b4 but now in bout 2 have his n mine fist baby in aug n its real crazy i feel in in there with him we pray npray 4 him 2 get a shock program or work release his layer really messed up aint show him no evidence no nothing they denied him new council may 1st the day they took him they took me so wealther u believe me or not i feel ur pain just keep praying god is the only judge

chrissy 6/15/2009 | reply
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I see she still ain't trying to repent. That's alright. She still got 7 years left to figure out that it is against the law to shoot people. What a lunatic.

Still Crazy 6/15/2009 | reply
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jail/prison aint all what they make it seem, it is what you make it Ma. like you stated, you been offered and given the opportunity to do right and good and push the positive influence on kids. Make the right decision. after all, you already locked up what more could they do to you...

₪ marcelina ₪ 6/15/2009 | reply
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- dittodatdog
  
  david rockwell 6/16/2009 | reply
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I think Remy should do the YAP. Depending on the kids ages yea some will be thinking its a trip to see a star. But when you show and tell them that, " Yea even tho i was poppin bottles and pushin whips and had cash and was a star out side this jail, that inside this jail i am the same as someone who stole and killed." Show them kids that once u in jail someone else who has a fraction of the money you got and not even a dash of the fame is tellin you when you can eat sleep and shower. Let them know that Famous people, rich people and rappers too can go to jail like anyone else. And let them know that if they could do that to you, a star, someone famous, been on tv can be put in there, what the hell will society do to them if they do something agaist the law or accidently get put there? Help open the youth's eyes to see that it can happen to them. Regardless of what you do keep ya head up and know that ya tru fans is wait for you to get out and waitin on another hot album.

DUCEZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brizz 6/15/2009 | reply
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Stay Strong Remy we Miss you !!

DJ PRECISE 6/15/2009 | reply
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I KNOW YOU MUST BE GOING THROUGH A LOT..I WISH YOU THE BEST IN A BAD SITUATION WE LOVE YOU OUT HERE AND DONT YOU FORGET IT.HOW CAN I GET THE ADDRESS TO WRITE YOU?

LIBRA 6/15/2009 | reply
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May AllAH bless and enrich us all...

How come we never hear about the young lady who she shot?..

I quote remy: " Everyone in prison isn't innocent but everyone in prison isn't guilty. So whether you end up here on purpose or by accident, the pain you’re feeling is still the same"

So the dude who raped a little girl feels the same pain as the dude who was framed for murder by corrupt cops?

HUH?

She needs to own up to what she did and stop whining..

she's not innocent...the girl who she shot was innocent.

She is concieted

etan 6/15/2009 | reply
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I miss you ma hurry up and knock em out the box with that good stuff you writing in there.........

Nashawn 6/15/2009 | reply
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hold ya head remy

charles frost 6/15/2009 | reply
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- Down to earth?
  
  have u ever lost someone to senseless violence?
  
  Have u ever had to hug someones moms because her son got killed?
  
  etan 6/15/2009 | reply
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- I have to flood out all this ignorance with truth...
  
  I lost a good friend right around the time remy shot the girl in 2007.
  
  thats why she's in prison not because of the hip-hop police or because she was a rapper.
  
  SHE SHOT HER BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT THE GIRL STOLE 3000 DOLLARS FROM HER. NOT 30,000. 3000 DOLLARS..
  
  SHE IS NOT A VICTIM.
  
  SEAN BELL WAS A VICTIM. DIALLO WAS A VICTIM.
  
  We all loved her raps but she did a crime (and she got off pretty easy) and now she must do the time.
  
  Its sad that she cant use this time to teach the youth about making mistakes...she's still singing the same "iam innocent song" did she ever apologize to the young lady who she shot and yes she shot her...they had several witness..there is no "if".
  
  The dude who shot my n*gga was singing the same song about "I didnt do anything wrong" and "its hard in the hood thats why I had to shot him" I hope somebody gives remy a nice buck 50...and I hope the n*gga who killed my boy has to sickduck everyday for the rest of his life.
  
  RIP MO
  
  etan 6/15/2009 | reply
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- I agree. she is and has been given the chance to turn around and do somethin positive but will she or is she still so into herself that all she thinks the kids will want is for her to rap?!&* i dont think so....
  
  ₪ marcelina ₪ 6/15/2009 | reply
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it is truely unfortunate when something like this happens to such a talented person. having personally met remy i can say she seemed like a very cool down to earth person. she never gave me the feeling like she thought she was the sh*t !! or above anybody else. as always in life we must all learn our lesson sum lessons are harder to learn then most. if what they say you did is true which i can not say is or is not cause i was not there. then you can consider this one of the hardest lesson you will have ever learned. god bless you and your family during this hard time and my the lord keep you safe until you return to them. when you do hopefully you will return alot wiser and stronger for having gone thru this painfull experieance. freedom as well as life is a gift that we all must charise hopefullly you will have learned this and never put either one in danger again.

1 luv hold your head,

FROST

charles frost 6/15/2009 | reply
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Stay up Remy!

luv hip-hop 6/15/2009 | reply
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