The Glee star is doing better day by day but Monteith’s death in August of last year is still heavy on her heart, which she recently talked about for Glamour UK‘s upcoming April 2014 issue.
She told the magazine all about their plans to have children and grow old together:
“We talked about a lot of things. We talked about children and what we would look like when we grew old, and who would be fat and how we would stay thin. We talked about where we wanted to go and what we wanted to do. We were done. We were it. When you’re at that place in your life with someone, you talk about everything. But today I feel like I was given the best part of Cory, and I’m thankful for that.”
Despite how hard it might be, she does seem very hopeful about life after his death:
“I feel physically and emotionally very strong. At the start, it’s hard because you’re so physically and mentally shocked and damaged, but after a while you get tired of physically feeling so horrendous,” she says, noting that yoga helped her cope. “Then gradually your mind catches up with your body.”
“Now I feel a little bit more back together and I have this blank canvas in front of me, which is what my life can be. There’s something sad about that but also something good, because I will take that blank canvas and make something beautiful out of it.”
She also said that she doesn’t think she’ll be getting into a new relationship anytime soon, so that she can recover fully and learn to be alone:
“I’ve only ever had serious relationships, so it’s an adjustment putting myself back into a place of being alone. And I was under a Cory Monteith spell…it’ll take time to readjust my mind, and I’m really not wanting to do that right now,” she tells the mag. “I feel like it’s so important to make sure that I’m 100 percent okay before I can get into a relationship. But people have to understand that I can’t be alone forever. Cory wouldn’t want that.”
We are still keeping Lea in our prayers and hopefully time will help to heal the pain accompanied by this tragedy.
SOURCE: Glamour UK | PHOTO CREDIT: Getty, Glamour UK