Ok, now we are back on… lol … and off… and back on…and off… and back on… lmfao. Now we are in May. Mr. SM is back in the picture pleading his love for me. Conversation way more deep. Talking about having a family with me, and actually planning it! Turning our on and off relationship around on me like I wasn’t serious enough… Like I was bull sh*ttin’… Asking me to move out to San Diego because that’s where he plays (‘hint’!). He said he was ready to meet my son. That why don’t I send him out there so they could bond… (note that he has never met my son, even now) I said soon enough. I wanted to make sure we were strong enough to make that commitment. Now we are in June. I head out to San Diego to visit him at his house. When I landed he was waiting with loving arms, and excited to see me. We couldn’t keep our hands, and lips off of each other. But it was always like that, that was never the problem (because he is the type of guy out of sight out of mind). So now that I am in his sight he wanted to plan for a family. So we did! Every night that I was there!!! Lol! I loved him truly, whole-heartedly and respectfully. I thought he was the one. I saw myself getting old with him and growing together as one. But I was wrong!!!!! Even though we had little arguments, the trip was perfect. I thought we were perfect. Whatever that is….
So now I left back for Florida and now ‘out of his sight.’ Here is where all the major bullsh*t starts to happen. So in his mind he got me pregnant for sure, and I thought the same! Three days pass and no word! I’m not a chick who smothers her man, but I decided to make the first phone call (after all we did try to make a family)! He answers. I bring up the situation, since I hadn’t heard from him, not even one call to see how I was doing!!! His answer: ‘We’re good, don’t trip…we’re in it for the long haul!’ UMMM WHAT??? What the hell is that supposed to mean? Can I say strike three yet? Still us both thinking I’m pregnant, (since it takes 2 weeks to find out for sure) then the wonderful world of Twitter shows him talking to an old ‘friend’ of his… let’s call her a ‘pussy back up singer/dancer,’ (Lmfao! and I use that term lightly with him and lady friends, since he never really knows how to have one!) and him finally returning the twits of her complaining that he has been ignoring her (since she hit him up when I was there! Now that I left he answered her back!) and made plans to hang out! All the while he still has me out of sight and obviously out of his mind (pun intended)! You know what his excuse for talking to her was??? ‘Don’t trip, we’re talking about her father….stop bringing negative energy so early in the morning!’ Ummmmm…….. are you fucking kidding me??? Now I have to get ghetto!!!! Lmfao!! And we still haven’t officially ended until….
July 4th, 2009. Still thinking I’m pregnant… Ummm, yeah, it’s not even 2 weeks yet!!! Haven’t heard from him. I have been traveling like crazy, shows, studio, ect. Not one call, text, fucking twit, nothing… not even to ask me how I was doing!!
July 5th. So I talk to my cousin, Jillian Valentin (you could follow her at http://www.twitter.com/jillianvalentin<– shameless plug, Lmao!!) about our situation since she’s my family. Of course she’s livid at this point and wants to call him, not to cause drama, just to tell him the things I won’t say!!! She calls, and no answer. What does he do?? (mind you he hasn’t even called me once, but calls back her number in 2 seconds that he doesn’t know!) So she picks up, and automatically gets strait to the point (in a nice caring way). He brushes her off, saying he can’t talk because he’s a little busy, but ‘really wants to hear her out’ and will call her back in a few minutes. Then within one minute texts me, ‘Why is your cousin calling me? If you have anything to s
