‘If I don’t start getting myself back on track, I’m gonna lose everything I don’t have yet.’- me.
I know I am capable of so much. I know there is a strength inside of me. Perhaps too much strength. Perhaps too many expectations that aren’t being fullfilled.
What if life was so much more? It’s like having a favorite rapper/singer who you feel is so deep and honest and is in touch with things normal people of the world don’t even want to grasp; only to find out that your favorite rapper/singer is somewhat superficial and only sees things for what they appear to be. So all of that deep thought and honesty is a lie. A cover up for their shallowness, an expression of their obnoxious ‘think they know it all’ ego. There’s a fine line between being different and forcing yourself to stand out. I’ve always wondered why I didn’t want to stand out. It wasn’t because I was scared of being myself. I am an individual. I’ve always been one. Everyone is. I’ve just always wanted to be an individual within a COLLECTIVE UNIT OF CREATIVITY AND ART. That’s probably why I have a strong connection to my idea of A GREAT MUSIC INDUSTRY. Now a days everyone’s going around trying so hard to be different from one another, there’s no creativity. There’s no real art. There are a bunch of ‘stand outs’ trying to stand out. We all have our own stories. We all have our own minds. Why not just rely on that? I’ve never wanted to live on another planet. I was born on this planet, with these people. With everyone else that was born here. But if everyone is so shallow, I don’t want to be around them. It’s sad when I’ve been around non substance for 2 months, that when I get around substance; I feel dumber than I’ve ever felt. And this isn’t just about music. I can hardly come across a person who really wants to talk. Whose thoughts are really intriguing to me. I encourage people to go to classes, hang out at dance studios. Hell, go stand on the corner block and talk about what could be over that bridge. Just get around people that are real creative and take action. Because there has to be more to life than this. i’m tired of feeling dumb and shallow. Wrapped up in a dumb and shallow environment. So this world has to get smart and creative again. These guys have to get clever and tough again. Work the system, and become leaders. I swear there’s gender confusion going on with how much guys worry about there jeans and shop for shoes more than carrie bradshaw. I need females to be inspiring again, and fight to show what their capable of… And I need to find myself again.
‘Everyday I find more things to fight for. I just have a hard time convincing myself it’s worth the fight’- me.
but, atleast I haven’t lost my fight!
