Kesha is sharing her dirty little secret – she’s actually very responsible despite her past wild party girl image.
It’s nice to see Kesha loving her herself and finding happiness, since earlier this year, the pop star entered herself into a two-month rehabilitation program for an eating disorder. Now, she has started opening up about her “uncomfortable story” of deep insecurities involving body image from childhood to now.
In an intimate essay written for ELLE UK, the “We R Who We R Are” singer recalls the moments leading up to rehab, being an outcast in music, and why she felt like a liar. Check out a few excerpts below.
On Her Dirty Little Secret:
“Sure, I’ve written songs about partying, but my dirty little secret is that I’m actually incredibly responsible. I take my music and career very seriously, and certainly didn’t land in this situation from partying.”
On Being A Liar:
“I felt like a liar, telling people to love themselves as they are, while I was being hateful to myself and really hurting my body,” she writes. “I wanted to control things that weren’t in my power, but I was controlling the wrong things. I convinced myself that being sick, being skinny was part of my job. It felt safer somehow.”
On The Music Industry:
“The music industry has set unrealistic expectations for what a body is supposed to look like, and I started becoming overly critical of my own body because of that,” she revealed. “I felt like people were always lurking, trying to take pictures of me with the intention of putting them up opine or printing them in magazines and making me look terrible.”
The Moment She Knew It Was OK to Leave Rehab:
“I knew I was ready to leave when I’d gained enough confidence to get on a plane knowing there would be paparazzi at the airport at the other end. I was right – they were there. But this time, when I saw the pictures, I felt OK. Even I need to be reminded we are who we are.”
Check out Kesha’s full essay here.
SOURCE & PHOTO CREDIT: Billboard, Instagram