‘I’m Not My Hair…’ by Marsha Ambrosius
If I knew then what I know now 🙂 I was chillin’, letting it air dry… With the vicious side part… I think I have roughly the same outfit on right now as I do in this pic lol what I don’t have is innocent hair! That untouched, pure, loved hair! And I’m ok with that! I don’t regret one single thing I did or didn’t do to my hair, except maybe that bleach! No good can come from bleaching!!! But I learned 🙂
Yes, the ever so touchy subject ‘Is that all yours???’ aka HAIR!!! My response… ‘Most of it!’ LOL I have done my hair every which way possible, relaxed, natural, every color possible, colors you’re not supposed to have, I DID IT ALL!!! 1st relaxer when I was 11. Chopped it all off to go natural when I was 22. 10 years later, hmmmmmmmm what didn’t I do to my hair??? What I didn’t do is grow my natural hair all the way out till it was out of control long. Yes I had a very large afro but it was also bright orange. I’d used so many chemicals to color it, it still didn’t feel like I owned it. Let’s have a look 🙂 WOW!!! I loved my afro but it was so chemically treated, I may as well have had a relaxer which I ended up getting right before I went on vacation in ’07. Thought that would be easier but NO!!! I was right back to where I didn’t wanna be! Had to maintain it!!! My natural hair is somewhat manageable lol I can’t leave it to air dry OH NO!!! I’d have issues tryna brush that out without doing some kinda damage. What I do have is A LOT of hair. It’s crazy thick and when it is long its frikkin HUGE!!
My hairstylist of the past 2-3 years knows that of me. Ava-Gaye who works at The Beauty Studio W400 Chelten Ave in Philly KNOWS I LOATHE the dryer, I’ll be asleep under that thing even if I’m not tired. I DO NOT wrap my hair even when I’m supposed to. I tried. That thing is off in the morning, not even in the bed. Like, do I get irritated in the middle of the night and throw it off??? There was a commercial back in the day when a ‘Hair Monster’ came into someones room and started messing up their hair while they were sleeping. Could be the ‘Hair Monster’ *shrugs*
Well, after endless sew-ins, glue-ins, curls, presses, afros, twists, braids, colors colors colors (in Ice-T voice) I’m ready to let my hair down 🙂 I’m off the relaxer aka creamy crack, my hair is growing at a rapid speed, with the fine touches of ‘that hair’ added to my hair, I now just have BIG HAIR!!! Thanks to a blow-dryer and some kind Brazilian’s 🙂 leave-in conditioners, a brush and twisting it up at night 🙂 I’m good 🙂
I look forward to where this hair takes me 🙂
-Marsha
