Am I supposed to tell you Happy Father’s Day even if I don’t mean it? How many other women can relate?
I’ve always wondered what it would be like to have a full time father. Someone that would walk with me through this journey called life, give me advice and protect me from making bad decisions. I was raised a very non-traditional way, my parents were not dedicated. Fortunately, I was given to my grandmother. She gave me unmeasurable amounts of attention and love and even with all of that there was always a yearning for a man’s devotion. As I’ve grown into womanhood, became a mother, a wife, even a friend I’ve discovered the many ways that would’ve saved me from a variety of struggles and challenges if I only had a full time father in my life. I do agree that every disappointment is a blessing, and that everything happens for a reason, but that still doesn’t stop my wondering.
Would I have been more secure about myself as a young girl? Would I have been a better wiser woman if I had a daddy? I struggle badly not to dislike him, the man that I am 50% biologically attached to. I know I have to respect him and honor him, but he just doesn’t make sense to me. His absence, his harshness, he is the reason why I will never know what it’s like to be daddy’s girl. It’s not a myth, children do need their fathers.
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